December 20, 2002 - Friday

Just felt like it.. after seeing all those trailers in front of the Two Towers movie =}

[^Young^] - 1:00 AM PST

December 22, 2002 - Sunday

Meant to post this earlier but realized I was late for work while making it. Anyway, that's how most of my morning went. Woke up by my father to have me make these phone calls about my parents benefits from work. Today was supposedly the deadline and it was nice of them to wait on a nice Saturday morning to wake me up when I coulda just slept in. Not that I hate my parents but sometimes I can't help but think maybe they had a second kid just to help them out like that. I look at my sister and she's outta the house and married but me, still single living with my folks and doing stuff for them. At times I feel that maybe I do things for them way out of my way then I get all bitter cause I run out of time and energy to do stuff for me. Well, doin' stuff for my dad is alright. He has the respect to ask me if I'm busy or if I have to take care of something first, unless it's a real important emergency. My mom however...I gotta drop everything for mother otherwise she'll get all hissy fit. But a couple of nights ago I got off work and thought about stuff. I made many friends at work and many of them have kids and stuff. Some knew very little English, and most didn't have any college education at all. I was walking to my car on a cold wet night while it was still drizzling. I thought to myself, man, I've got it good. Heck, I've graduated from college, don't have to worry about rent much or bills, have a lotta free time to spend with good friends, I'm not attached to anyone and can make out with any woman, got a job that pays pretty decent. However I thought, sure, things are great but maybe there's something better. Maybe there's more I can do to become better. I may be satisfied with what I have know but perhaps there can be more potential somewhere. But I really don't mind the things I have right now. I'm pretty happy. Not sure what more I can want....hmmmm...maybe a girlfriend?.....Nah. But it all came to me cause I talked to people at work who wished they spent more time in school, who wished that they were still living with their parents, who wished that they had kids later in life, stuff like that. That night, I just stood by my car in the drizzle trying to see myself at age 40 regretting things and thinking back when I was 25 and how I had it good. Just standing savoring that moment in time realizing that I'm 25 and I've got it good. Yeah, maybe someday I hope to become better than what I am. Which comes back to why I ranted...er...hmmm....Actually it was suppose to be stuff about doing things for mother that pisses me off. Especially all that financial and legal crap in the mail that I gotta explain to her and stuff. I'm gonna buy her a computer this holiday. She keeps on bugging me about how to use the internet and stuff and uses my system. Where was I goin' with this? I don't know anymore but my mind feels lighter.

[^Kyngazz^] - 2:40 AM PST

So after you've finally dealt the wall enough punishment, or you've shaped your head in just the right way, or just gotten bored with the repetitiveness of feeling sharp pain, play: Mutant Storm. ...unless your computer is just as 3D-ass-tastic as my Gateway laptop (their hardware is okay, but their driver support sucks)... in which case, if the intro screen slows massively, just uninstall and think nothing of it. I've discovered that there are quite a few indie games out there that are cooler than what I remembered in the past when "shareware" was a buzzword (just like "ass"). However, it's nice to see indie games doing stuff the bigger companies don't even want to try. I'm really sick of bandwagon mentality, especially with all the dark, rts, fps clones out there. Anyways, I'll cut this preaching short... because I ain't good at it. >.< Oh, forgot to mention with that game above, if you decide to use the mouse & keyboard interface (very cool), 0.25 is a nice mouse speed, and turn on the big crosshair so you know where you're shooting. ^_~ ...Oh yeah, props to the Kinger for yet another *fine* animation. Sweet job! =)

[^A-sama^] - 3:23 AM PST

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