Doshii_Jun A question of purpose I lost a possession very dear to me. It was a Swiss watch an old captain of mine gave to me, for my graduation of high school. I do not think I will get it back. I just wonder . . . did that watch mean to me as much as I thought it did? I lost the damn thing, so easily . . . just rushed out of the room and forgot to come back until the next morning. I feel so damn careless and stupid . . . but my girlfriend thinks I've just worked myself up, as usual. And I don't know HOW I can tell the captain . . . I guess, I'm asking what I should do . . . and what I should feel. Because right now, all I feel is anger at myself, and disappointment. Akane Aikawa Maybe some of the anger you feel isn't because of your attachment to the watch... but perhaps because it's the feeling you won't get a "second chance". You've lost it and now you won't ever be able to get it back unless you're extraordinarily lucky. It could also be you're afraid of your captain's disappointment that you lost such a 'dear possession'; one that he gave to you. Akane Aikawa Try telling your captain friend and tell him how bad you feel. Most people realize that mistakes happen... and that's what they are. Mistakes. You didn't intentionally mean to and it does really hurt you. I'm sure your captain friend will understand. Akane Aikawa It's alright to feel bad about it... just don't beat yourself up over it for too long. Loss and regret are natural but like all things, shouldn't be dwelled upon. Learn from your mistakes and try not to repeat them next time! ^_^ Doshii_Jun Thank you, Aikawa-san . . . you're right. Can't dwell on it the bad. But I'll be damned if I don't do everything to find that watch. And maybe a bit of luck will come my way. Heh . . . guess I'm not very good at NOT dwelling on things. My girlfriend would smack me. Still. Thanks again, Aikawa-san. You are wise indeed.